By Anomaly, here I mean someone who's trying to do different, follow a different path. And that's sometimes scary. It sometimes hits you. You see people around you getting placed, getting settled and you are still hustling around your dream.
Being in final year of engineering, where I believe most of the dreams die and people now start to settle for whatever placements they get (of course, here I am talking about mediocre people, exceptional is rare at our college, and Anomaly is rarest). Me being one of the very few people doing a startup. I mean sounds cool right? A startup! CEO! Founder! Funding! Valuation! It's all bullshit.
Sometimes you are mentally exhausted managing college stuff (most of it is useless) and trying to survive with a very early stage Startup.
If you are preparing for Competitive exams or even placements, there are a huge people around you who relate to you. For me, hardly anyone because of course, I am an anomaly. Sometimes I feel it's too risky, what if I fail? I won't have a startup and also not a single placement offer in my hand! Sometimes everything hits you at the same time. You loose a lot of people. You can't really hang out with your friends. You miss a lot of things and then you think, what if it doesn't pay off, all these compromises.
But this gives you a kick, you become harder, more stiffer towards problems, pressure, mess ups and you learn to survive. At this stage, maybe I am not really focused on making, there's an entire life for that. And I don't even wanna settle for average placements. My ambitions, my desires and my aspirations are way bigger than these. Now, I just wanna explore. Learn, fail, get up again and fail. Until one day it all pays off...
Maybe I'm happy being an anomaly. Yes sometimes it'll scares me, but I believe I'm okay with it, I'm getting used to it.